I can't believe I'm on here well to start I'm a recovering alcoholic in AA. I didn't have sex with this women but I fingered her and she licked the tip of my you no what sorry for being graphic but I need help. My wife knows about the affairs I have had in the past. She doesn't know what happen last week. I'm not going to tell her but I feel like god is going to get back to me by giving me an std or something I feel so bad my sponsor says do not tell keep in mind my wife and I are already talking about a divorce I have a great job go to school and provide for our family there was lust in the air there was desire but I love my wife I'm truly sorry for what I have done and need advice and help I'm going to AA work through the step work but I cannot forgive myself and my actions please help.