Ok so I went to my dealers house. We got High. I ended up jacking off through my underwear after I took my jeans off. The dealer proceed to give me oral sex (it lasted about 10 seconds before I pulled him off as I couldn't enjoy it)
I feel awful because now I have to lie about not having sex until I get an STI test. I Never went there with the intention of that happening and I think the fact I couldn't get hard when I was receiving the oral is indicative of how I didn't want to be in that situation.
He tried later to do it again and I said no.
It was almost like it was too late for me to stay atop the first time and I kinda froze.
How do I handle all this going forward